Days become weeks. Weeks become years.

I'm not giving up my desires. I'm giving up my resistance. I never gave up. I have to go with the flow of what is. "This pause of normal existence has brought dramatic realignment and perspective that will serve me for decades to come."  Quoting Abraham Hicks

      This is a true story all based on an unsubstantiated anonymous telephone call made to Arizona Child Protective Services. Phoenix police came to our apartment looking for our youngest child, Sonny who was 18 months at the time. Sonny was at his Great Grandma and Great Grandpa's house at the time. Police barged in with their guns drawn yelling at me, "Where's your boyfriend?!!" Gabe is Sonny's father. He was in the bathroom and when he came out police put a gun to his head. I remember the officer was holding the gun sideways pointed right at his head demanding our child.        Within an hour later Phoenix police went to Sonny's Great Grandma and Great Grandpa's house. They said they wanted to look around the house. They were looking for our child. Sonny's 80 year old Great Grandpa told police to go get a warrant if they wanted in his home. This was happening in a senior citizen golf community. Police had no right to come in without a warrant and h...

03/09/2021       I'm learning how to bring my mind back to focus through law of attraction. Abraham Hicks taught me I can change my thoughts in 17 seconds. I use this everyday. Today in the car I started thinking, "You stole my kids. You stole my life. You fucking fucks! 14 years later & no arrests. Fuck you FBI!" Then I have to think how Abraham teaches, "No, don't think like that. Take 17 seconds to reset your thoughts." Breathe in, breathe out a few times. Keep driving. Look around. Look at the stuff I just bought. Anything. I started thinking about the Brillo scour pads I bought at Dollar Tree and what I'm going to do with them. "I can't wait to clean up that beautiful glass Starbucks cup. Then I can list it on Ebay tonight. I wonder how long it will take to sell. I wonder if anything sold today. I'm going to check as soon as I get home." 17 seconds later I have new momentum and good vibrations. Now just keep it flowing.